well, that's it. my 20's are officially on life support. today i turn 29.

what a scary state of affairs. if you'd told me years ago that i'd be here (here is NOWHERE) when i was 29, i wouldn't believe you. it's depressing. time seems to drag on ever so slowly, and yet, before you know it, chunks of your life have vanished without a trace with little to show for it. so here i am, pushing 30, not even started (on a career) let alone established, single, living at home with my parents, slaving over people's white mochas and caramel macciatos; wondering how in the world i never noticed that my life was slipping away from me.

fuck it, at least i have a ton of amazing porn. and i mean, a TON. MARRY ME, GIANNA!

in all seriousness, i've come to the realization that it's getting to the point where it's "now or never," and i have zero intention of letting it be "never." so this year i'm wholly dedicating myself to moving to Orlando, Florida, where i will attend Full Sail (www.fullsail.com) to pursue a degree in... well, i haven't wholly decided. animation? programming? but my eyes are ultimately set like so many others'; the video game industry. video games have been my only true passion since childhood, the only thing that's been able to hold my attention. i remember getting my ass beat as a kid in school, and even as the fat little hands of my antagonists wailed away on me, being far far away. lost in my imagination in the world of Final Fantasy. and in turn, i want to create worlds for another scrawny helpless half filipino "monkey boy" to get lost in. the real world's fucking harsh and cruel; why NOT escape?

i don't just WANT to do this; i NEED to do this.

so some friends and i are actually beginning to formulate our plans for getting down there. like i said; now or never.

in other news, i have had a FIREY desire to draw and color lately, so expect actual updates, meaning ARTWORK, soon. not that i will ever understand what ANYONE sees in my art, but i love you all anyway for looking at it.

lastly, dance/trance/club/electronic music seems to REALLY have taken hold over me in the new year. i can almost feel it influencing the way i've been doodling. wasn't expecting that.

anyway, enough out of me for now. much love for all of you, if you've actually read all of this, thanks for taking the time out. throw on some porn and look up at the stars and know somewhere, out there, i'm watching porn too.

and for a moment...

just for a moment...

in a way, we are together.

love,
kryss.