so i've gone through my gallery and taken down a ton of stuff. i've left just about everything that anyone else has ever colored for me up. even where i feel my linework is absolutely sub par, i think it would be disrespectful to take any piece down that someone else worked on. i left up some of the pencil work that i find still holds its charm, even if it's not exactly technically amazing - which my pencil work never is.

my recent attempt to shift to all-digital, from sketching to coloring, is a very satisfying endeavor for me. i've been stagnant in my art for quite some time, and in looking through sketches over the span of several years, i'm not sure quite how or when it happened. for years my artwork showed a lot more dynamism (is that a word) - with tons of action and tons of different styles and influences. and then at some point, i just got stuck in a rut of drawing the same basic face or two, from the same basic angle or two, with the same basic hairstyles and with the same basic outfits... it's more than a little disheartening.

but in reading the always-amazing ImagineFX and really opening my eyes to what others are doing and what i am doing myself, i think there's progress that's brewing. and while the first couple Colors! NDS pieces i've posted have been basically in that same vein, it's just reverting to that comfort zone to try to get used to working on a (sort-of) new medium. my goal is absolutely to break free of the constraints that i've forced on myself.

so now i have Colors! for NDS for portable digital adventures, and of course PSCS3 EXT for base-of-operations activity, as well as Painter X (which i still find intimidating.) and of course, i have a small stash of pens and markers and pencil and paper... my first love, so to speak. as well as canvas, and paints, and brushes. really, i'm just trying to make myself into more of the artist that i think i should be.

and to that end, i've actually gotten out of hard core MMO gaming, where my WOW addiction once stripped my creative energies, i think playing any MMO type game on a CASUAL-ONLY basis is what it's going to take for me to be able to continually progress and create. we'll see, time will tell.

if you've read up until here, you get some kind of prize. i don't know what. why don't you ask for something?

love always,
K

all-digital drawings coming soon... believe it or not. it's a weird, weird, world.

well, that's it. my 20's are officially on life support. today i turn 29.

what a scary state of affairs. if you'd told me years ago that i'd be here (here is NOWHERE) when i was 29, i wouldn't believe you. it's depressing. time seems to drag on ever so slowly, and yet, before you know it, chunks of your life have vanished without a trace with little to show for it. so here i am, pushing 30, not even started (on a career) let alone established, single, living at home with my parents, slaving over people's white mochas and caramel macciatos; wondering how in the world i never noticed that my life was slipping away from me.

fuck it, at least i have a ton of amazing porn. and i mean, a TON. MARRY ME, GIANNA!

in all seriousness, i've come to the realization that it's getting to the point where it's "now or never," and i have zero intention of letting it be "never." so this year i'm wholly dedicating myself to moving to Orlando, Florida, where i will attend Full Sail (www.fullsail.com) to pursue a degree in... well, i haven't wholly decided. animation? programming? but my eyes are ultimately set like so many others'; the video game industry. video games have been my only true passion since childhood, the only thing that's been able to hold my attention. i remember getting my ass beat as a kid in school, and even as the fat little hands of my antagonists wailed away on me, being far far away. lost in my imagination in the world of Final Fantasy. and in turn, i want to create worlds for another scrawny helpless half filipino "monkey boy" to get lost in. the real world's fucking harsh and cruel; why NOT escape?

i don't just WANT to do this; i NEED to do this.

so some friends and i are actually beginning to formulate our plans for getting down there. like i said; now or never.

in other news, i have had a FIREY desire to draw and color lately, so expect actual updates, meaning ARTWORK, soon. not that i will ever understand what ANYONE sees in my art, but i love you all anyway for looking at it.

lastly, dance/trance/club/electronic music seems to REALLY have taken hold over me in the new year. i can almost feel it influencing the way i've been doodling. wasn't expecting that.

anyway, enough out of me for now. much love for all of you, if you've actually read all of this, thanks for taking the time out. throw on some porn and look up at the stars and know somewhere, out there, i'm watching porn too.

and for a moment...

just for a moment...

in a way, we are together.

love,
kryss.

a long time since i've added artwork, longer since i've updated this silly journal.

i'll get around to it. eventually. maybe.

my gnome warlock piece, [link] with colours by the undeniable beast ~luxun was put up on blizzard's official fan art site today. for a little bit you could actually see it on the main page of [link], but they already condensed the fan art thumbnail down to another (admittedly WAY better) image.

but anyway it's still sort of a thrill for me to see my art up somewhere other than on my own personal gallery. just sort of funny/ironic that it happens AFTER i quit the game.

anyway. a bigger journal soon, more pics, other stuff to talk about. soon!

<3

K